"Another day without a smoke. Whats it like: Don't know what I really want. I am Used to it being a cigarette. Brain is still in a cloud and got a really crappy nights sleep. That poison really brain washes you. Reading is near impossible unable to focus due to cloud. I have been thinking about ravaging the wife since last night. So that seems to work pretty good still. But I feel kinda fat and lethargic. So not feeling good about the Adonis figure I would want to present. So maybe I should force some physicall behavior today. No more trying to sleep and veging out. Had a bad case of indigestion for last 3 days. My brain is messing with me. I have to be smarter then my brain. How exactly do I defeat this evil genius?"