Do you ever have days were no matter how hard you try. You just can't smile? Now this may not be big deal to many people but when I an in a good place in my life. I smile all day long. I like it.....
Its not a pain per say. Its your brain yearning. It just really wants that poison. The longer it is gone the more precious it becomes. I have always found the last day ofthe first week to be the day of reckoning. This is were I seemed to get most tempted and mentally exhausted to go ahead and just give it what it wants. You fight in your head. If only I can have one drag... I will be all better. We can go do other stuff. Lets go to the movies now. But in about an hour after you put it out. It want another dose of poison. I'm 45... How many more does can my body take before I get sick? If I quit now will I recover some of my recently lost physical attributes? Maybe? But I certainly won't lose anymore. Smoking gives me nothing. I only get something by losing the poison. Just one and the desire returns. The cycle starts all over.
I'm going to go take a shower...................................................................
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Keep with it Jim. We know it's hard, but just think about how great it will be when you are not woken up by the craving. When, (like you had said) you can watch a movie without the need, and when you can have complete control over your body. I am rooting for you! (p.s. I know it is hard to smile, but remember that you are married to the most amazing woman in the world... smile at her and have some fun)
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